I had just finished explaining to my husband how I felt everyone in my life has expectations of me. Expectations I didn’t always understand or even know about. How I always felt exhausted, running around trying understand what everyone wants or needs from me before they asked. How I just wanted to love him and make him happy.
Then he sat down next to me, our folded clothes surrounding us, and said, “Honey, I don’t expect anything from you. Do I want you to love me and spend time with me? Yes! But I’m here. I’ll always be here. You don’t have to ‘do’ anything to earn my love! You already have it.”
And as he was sitting there looking at me, God got ahold of my heart. There have been times in this past year I wondered why God gave me my husband. Why God saw fit to make me a wife, because, y’all, I am not good at it. Why did God think this was a good idea? It is for moments like these, where God, ever so lovingly, says “This, this is the reason.”
Because does He want me to love Him, spend my time with Him, and serve Him? Yes! But will He leave me or abandon me when I don’t? No! He is there. He shows up, and will continue to show up. Just like my husband.
CG
Then he sat down next to me, our folded clothes surrounding us, and said, “Honey, I don’t expect anything from you. Do I want you to love me and spend time with me? Yes! But I’m here. I’ll always be here. You don’t have to ‘do’ anything to earn my love! You already have it.”
And as he was sitting there looking at me, God got ahold of my heart. There have been times in this past year I wondered why God gave me my husband. Why God saw fit to make me a wife, because, y’all, I am not good at it. Why did God think this was a good idea? It is for moments like these, where God, ever so lovingly, says “This, this is the reason.”
Because does He want me to love Him, spend my time with Him, and serve Him? Yes! But will He leave me or abandon me when I don’t? No! He is there. He shows up, and will continue to show up. Just like my husband.
CG
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