Independence, by definition, means to be self-ruled, self-reliant, and self-sufficient. It means self-determined, and in my case, separated from those I love most.
I finally understand the 30-year-old men living in their mother's basement. I really, really do, I have played with that idea many times of moving back into my own parent's basement, where I would either meet the man of my dreams and move on with him, or live the remainder of my pitiful life.
Because, you see, I finally understand the fear that you suddenly have when you become an adult, it doesn't matter if you've been self-reliant, self-determined, and self-ruled for years, you suddenly realize it's make it or break it time and you are so sure you're going to break it.
If you don't get that job you are going to starve, if you don't get that job, you'll not be able to pay you're rent, which will in the end, having you living out of a drafty-cardboard-box on the side of a street. Oh, and better be real careful with that money or you may just one day not have enough for groceries and will just have to skip meals so you don't eat it all before your next paycheck.
You suddenly have all this responsibility, you're all on your own, and you have no idea what on God's sweet earth you're doing. Nothing can help prepare this for you. I've spent more time than I care to admit, wondering if this is all worth it.
But the thing is, if we never allow ourselves to get off our butts in our mom's basement and go and go and do something with our lives, we will never allow ourselves to experience all the other amazing things life has in store for us, for example, friends, life lessons, learning something new, getting something right after falling on our butts a 100 times, and just experiencing that even though life can suck pretty bad, it can also have some freaking awesome-sauce stuff too.
Courage, definition, the ability to do something that frightens one. Or, strength in the face of pain or grief.
Don't allow fear to make you miss out on all you can do, all you can experience. Put on your big girl pants and deal with it, because you can do this. I believe in you.
"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that
something is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever,
but the cautious do not live at all." - That one guy from The Princess Diaries
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