I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
no turning back, no turning back.
Though none go with me, I still will follow;
though none go with me, I still will follow;
though none go with me, I still will follow;
no turning back, no turning back.
My cross I'll carry, till I see Jesus;
my cross I'll carry, till I see Jesus;
my cross I'll carry, till I see Jesus;
no turning back, no turning back.
The world behind me, the cross before me;
the world behind me, the cross before me;
the world behind me, the cross before me;
no turning back, no turning back.
Because this song has gotten me through a lot.
C.G.
Sunday, May 29, 2016
Thursday, May 26, 2016
The Last Seven Months...
I realized something today. And it's that I did it. I really did it!
When I leave here in two weeks, I will have adulted successfully all by myself (almost quite literally sometimes) for the last seven months. I've had to figure out how to pay bills, learn how to explain things to people so they can help me fix things when they go wrong, deal with things that needed to be dealt with (and not a second sooner, because I mean, come on, who does that?), make friends (it's a lot harder than I thought), and deal with things going wrong that were just out of my control.
In the last seven months I've experienced joy, pain, contentment, sadness, confusion, depression and joy all over again. Through everything though, has been my one Consistent, my Rock, my Safe Place, my Jesus, He has lovingly and faithfully seen me through these past months and I can say with more certainty than ever that I don't know what I would do without my faith, and without my relationship with Him.
And He has blessed me with SO many amazing friends, family, and coworkers! To you, thanks for helping answer all the questions like, "How do you do this?", "What am I doing?", "Am I doing this right?", "What is this?", "Can you help me?", "Why?", and, at times, just "What?", thanks for letting me vent, even if the thing I'm venting to you about makes you just as mad as I am (i.e. bills, the government, rude people, life), thanks for reminding my to laugh when I was having a hard time reminding myself, thanks for helping me be strong when I didn't feel it, and thanks for reminding me it's okay to cry, as long as you get right back up and keep swinging. I hardly know what to say in regards to how much you all mean to me, except to say that I love you all, and all of your love, your wisdom and your encouragement has meant the world to me. And in the words of Nacho Libre, "you the beeest."
So what's next for me you may ask? Well, I'm selling everything that won't fit in two suit cases and in some amazing friend's attic (speaking of which, if anyone you is looking for a coffee table and two amazingly comfortable couches, let me know!) and moving back in with my parents for the summer, wherever and whatever they do. " Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God." - Ruth 1:16
And then, after an amazing summer of seeing my family and trusting God, I'm on to OBU! Or, for those of you who don't know what that is, Oklahoma Baptist University, to major in goodness knows what, right now it's Business (YAY!), but I could see myself easily changing it to, Education, History, Theology, Psychology, or Counseling, in short, I just have too many options, or as my sweet, 3-year-old nephew calls them, "Op-chums".
After that? Who knows what! Maybe the world? But that's another chapter, for another day.
... This is all assuming I can get my house packed in the next two weeks...
Until next time,
C.G.
When I leave here in two weeks, I will have adulted successfully all by myself (almost quite literally sometimes) for the last seven months. I've had to figure out how to pay bills, learn how to explain things to people so they can help me fix things when they go wrong, deal with things that needed to be dealt with (and not a second sooner, because I mean, come on, who does that?), make friends (it's a lot harder than I thought), and deal with things going wrong that were just out of my control.
In the last seven months I've experienced joy, pain, contentment, sadness, confusion, depression and joy all over again. Through everything though, has been my one Consistent, my Rock, my Safe Place, my Jesus, He has lovingly and faithfully seen me through these past months and I can say with more certainty than ever that I don't know what I would do without my faith, and without my relationship with Him.
And He has blessed me with SO many amazing friends, family, and coworkers! To you, thanks for helping answer all the questions like, "How do you do this?", "What am I doing?", "Am I doing this right?", "What is this?", "Can you help me?", "Why?", and, at times, just "What?", thanks for letting me vent, even if the thing I'm venting to you about makes you just as mad as I am (i.e. bills, the government, rude people, life), thanks for reminding my to laugh when I was having a hard time reminding myself, thanks for helping me be strong when I didn't feel it, and thanks for reminding me it's okay to cry, as long as you get right back up and keep swinging. I hardly know what to say in regards to how much you all mean to me, except to say that I love you all, and all of your love, your wisdom and your encouragement has meant the world to me. And in the words of Nacho Libre, "you the beeest."
So what's next for me you may ask? Well, I'm selling everything that won't fit in two suit cases and in some amazing friend's attic (speaking of which, if anyone you is looking for a coffee table and two amazingly comfortable couches, let me know!) and moving back in with my parents for the summer, wherever and whatever they do. " Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God." - Ruth 1:16
And then, after an amazing summer of seeing my family and trusting God, I'm on to OBU! Or, for those of you who don't know what that is, Oklahoma Baptist University, to major in goodness knows what, right now it's Business (YAY!), but I could see myself easily changing it to, Education, History, Theology, Psychology, or Counseling, in short, I just have too many options, or as my sweet, 3-year-old nephew calls them, "Op-chums".
After that? Who knows what! Maybe the world? But that's another chapter, for another day.
... This is all assuming I can get my house packed in the next two weeks...
Until next time,
C.G.
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