Sunday, January 6, 2013

A Heart Most Worthy

This blog post was originally going to be about the comfort of being uncomfortable, how I've started learning to trust God through the last few years, and in a way that is what it's going to be about, but I just finished watching the movie Courageous, and I was struck by what the character Nathan Hayes (the black guy) said to his daughter, not because I thought it was outrageous, actually, I totally agreed with everything he said, and the way he made it so special for her was so awesome, but it reminded me of something God and I once talked about, for you to understand this, I need to go back a few years.
There was this guy and I was crazy about him, he was the first guy who ever really inspired me to get to know God, first guy my family really liked, and really, he was a God-send. When I most un-romantically blurted out (at one of the worst time possible, I may add) that I like him, he kindly told me he wasn't interested.

When I got over being angry with him, I realized he had done the right thing, not only because he wasn't interested, but also because I was the farthest thing right then from being a woman ready to be there for a man or family when I couldn't even seem to be nice and selfless for my sister. So that's when I told God that I was done being the way I was, I didn't want to even think of dating or marrying until I was the best me I could possibly be, and so I started to explore what that meant and how one did it. What I found was to spend time with people of good integrity, spend time in your Bible, spend time with spiritually uplifting books and authors such as John Eldredge, C.S. Lewis, Beth Moore, etc.,  but most of all spend time with God. That last one is the most important, tell Him everything. 

So you see, what Nathan Hayes said when he talked to his daughter about waiting and finding the best man out there for his little girl reminded me to become the best girl I could be through God so as to be worthy the best man waiting out there for a girl like me.

My prayer today is that we all start living a life to be proud of, listening to the wisdom our parents give, and living for God instead of the guy  we've been crazy about forever so that we can become men and women with a heart most worthy.