Day 4

Day 4

6-1-15

My uncle's funeral was today, I have so many thoughts relating to him, I still can't believe he's dead, I keep thinking he's going to come into the room at any moment and start hugging and laughing with everyone, I always thought that there would be more time, more time to get to know him, more time to hear his stories. We were always so busy, and I always felt too much like a silly little girl to get up the courage to seek out a real conversation, and now I feel I've lost my chance, I know I really haven't but feelings really do have a mind of their own.

Since my uncle took over the management of the Camp, I, and I didn't realize this until this weekend, have always imagined coming back to either volunteer or be on staff, hang out with my uncle and his family, work hard, grow in God, all that fun stuff. But I'm never going to get to do that, sure I can be on staff just about anywhere, I can grow in God, I can work hard, all those things I could do somewhere, anywhere else, but I think that I missed out on a closeness to my uncle, and even to some degree, my aunt and cousins, (though that is much more easily remedied.) and I am truly hurt about that.

In the service today one of the pastors that got up and spoke (there where, like, 3 or 4) talked about how one of my uncle's favorite verses was "Be strong and courageous"(Joshua 1:7) he talked about how that was how my uncle lived his life, seeking after God, and being strong and courageous in loving others... and it makes me think, what do you want to be known for? And are you living in a way that shows it, proves it?

It has been an amazing weekend but we are headed home, and I gotta say, I'm excited to get home! We have had (so far) a very peaceful and beautiful ride, sharing stories from this weekend, my uncle and his life, and beautiful moments of silence. God is good y'all, all the time.

Have also just gotta praise God for how much healing love went on from so many amazing family members and friends. God is beyond amazing, He's awesome!

Now for some much needed SLLEEEPP. Turns out family reunions can wear you out. Weird.

Wishing you all many Zzzzz this night,

CG