I moved! My room is beautiful and I love it already and I love living with my brother and his family but... I'm not happy. I can't tell you why. I know I've been unhappy right after I would move but that was when I was a kid, but I am no longer a kid, I prayed and got excited and made a decision and did it. I should be excited! Why am I no longer excited? And why, on God's sweet earth am I unhappy?
I know this is what God had for me. Right? I prayed, I sought counsel from family and trusted friends, I was excited, I'm sure God was too, right? What's going on?
Or is this something else, some sort of spiritual warfare, or something emotional I haven't dealt with from my past rising up to roar it's ugly head?
I don't start work for another 2 weeks, am I just bored? But if this is boredom it's terrible! I thought that if I ever got to experience boredom it would be wonderful! You can do anything you wanted! Read all the books! Watch all the movies!
I know one way or another I WILL find out what's going on and fix it. But until then, I am oddly perplexed.
CG
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